I hate this beat, cuz it reminds me
of the night you took the pills.
Now you're taking risks that might take your
life & it's like: now i feel
So selfish for the drug
abuse & all the death wishes.
Didn't even get to spend the day
with you on Christmas.
But hey, that's life.
& people get separated-
Not intentionally,
but my family's torn apart & i hate it.
Life is so sacred. Love you like the sky loves the
stars, you can make
it!
Take this world,
you can hold it in your palms.
Can't be with you everyday so i'mma
say it in a song.
I love you & i wish that i could take
your pain away.
I think about you every night,
i think about you every day
& I don't call cuz it hurts & that's how
i deal with problems-
Act like they don't exist & the universe will
solve em.
& That's why i understand exactly
what you're going through.
I know you cut hella
deep, but
to sleep with the truths
That are hard to accept only make you
that stronger!
Living in denial ain't an option any longer.
Life
is so amazing, hoping
one day you can see it.
Yo, i used to have your same mind
state & now i'm heated
That the world is so cold
that it turns our hearts to ice.
& I know i'm not the best at giving
out
advice
But i gotta let you know how i'm feeling
cuz i care
& If you left before me, the pain i
couldn't bare.
Cuz you - 1 of the people
i love most on this planet
& You - 1 of the people that i've
been taking for granted.
It's sad & i'm sorry.
This was a wake up call
Not only for yourself but for the
rest of us all.
& I ain't gonna lie, i'm
scared, you got me worried.
Life passes so fast,
why we living in a hurry
For vision that's blurry
& temporary numbness?
It's no wonder we can't grasp
reality. It's fun when
The problems go away
& the depression's deterred.
But then you coming down feeling, feeling...
what's the word?
Worthless.
Like you're
on the Earth with no purpose.
Like you really don't deserve this.
Hold up, let me reword this.
When i'm sober, & it's over
& i'm older, god damn it, i feel like dying.
But, under no stress, with the
coke breath, & the cold sweats,
Sometimes i still feel
like dying.
You gotta live life to find
your purpose.
You gotta work hard & when it comes, you gon
be like, "i deserve this! "
So keep your head high, this too shall
pass.
& In the morning when you get
up into school & class
Learn everything you can & utilize the
knowledge.
So f***n proud of you that you going
to college.
You deserve the best so work
& you'll receive it.
Anything imaginable is possible,
believe it!
So keep your head up
cuz nobody's gonna do it for you.
Your family, we love you, accept
you, adore you.
Always in my thoughts,
in my heart, on my mind.
Promise everything's gonna get better,
you just gotta give it time.