Yeah, dear diary,
what a day that it's been I thought about my life, I just don't know
where to begin
Felt a lot of pain and strain, it's hard not
to sin
That's the sacrifices an
d prices you pay just
Yeah, see all this pressure,
man, it's building up
I feel the panic and doubt if
I don't give enough
But what's enough, man,
because there ain't no written rule
I feel I'm on the brink of saying,
man, it's like a pinnacle
Yeah, feel like my past was a preparation
All them playground fights,
they're gonna see the making
And all these late nights,
finally gonna see the waking
Never wanted science so bad,
you just end up shaking
Yeah, I swear down, I put my life in this
So many nights I cried just
to try right like this
I felt my vibe had died,
had to reignite the switch
I had to write the vibe just
to rewrite the script
And now I'm finally feeling like
I've been re surrected
I spent too long trying to be
somebody they expected
Don't chase another's dream,
fool your own to be neglected
Gotta believe to achieve,
that's the best perspective
My whole life, man,
my family's been tragedy
And it's a fallacy that
everybody's mad at me
I'm paranoid and sometimes,
yeah, I'm glad to be
Cause when someone lets me down,
at least I've done a blast for me
And I always have the greatest
intentions
Sometimes when I lie,
I'm in need of attention
I'm sorry that I missed your birthday
But I've been in the studio making
beats since last
Thursday
And my brother, man, he just had a kid,
it's the greatest gift
They call me
Uncle
Big, but since the birth,
man, I've only seen her twice
And it's twice, I swear down,
I'ma make it right on my life
Boy, this music, man,
it's all that I'll ever be
And all this hate is a waste of my energy
I think it's time
that I face all my enemies
I promise being honest is the base of the remedy,
yeah
And I swear to my mother, man,
I wish I was home just like my sister and brother
And
God knows the truth is
I'm missin' a lover
Next time man I'm home I'm a kiss and a hug -er,
huh
Dear
Heath, first of all, now I'm listenin'
It feels so good to see you
finally glistenin'
Twenty -two years of hard
work we're witnessin'
It's too bad that you missed
your old niece's christenin'
And it goes without saying,
love your work way
If there's a competition or race,
you're first place
The difference between
working hard and hustling
Is when you're hustling, man,
it's more than putting muscle in
And I know you find it hard
with all your family
And deep down,
everybody has agony
But you keep it honest all
throughout the tragedy
And people look to you for faith,
cos you take it casually
But sometimes, man,
you gotta know to let it rain
I feel your pain every day
when you write a page
An d times change,
but I'll always be the fucking same
Your biggest fan every time
when you touch a stage
And you're the most
honest rapper undoubtedly
So
I'ma shout it to the cloud
and to the mountain peaks
The whole world knows exactly
what you're about to be
So just believe my
G, cause you're about to see
And these kids need
something to believe in
Rappers these days ain't
nothing but misleading
It's crazy thinking of the things
you finally achieving
Five years ago, nobody was believing
But I know you find it hard
to always take a stress
Satan only picks the strongest,
that's what makes you best
Life's a test, I know it's hard to manifest
But try and take it as a bless,
and nothing less
So stay strong, my
G, through all the fear and pain
A lot of rappers come and go,
but you're here to stay
I never hide,
but you know your face clear as day
In real talk, a mother's love never goes away
you
Big Heath 
